You ever wake up and all the week’s funk has manifested within you and your patience for anything or anybody is at zero and extensively approaching the negatives? That's the kind of day I had recently. I went to bed irritated, received a text message of misunderstanding at 5 am, woke up and had a conversation with a person trying to save face, went shopping, and the name of a person I don't particularly care for was called over the loudspeaker repeatedly, and to top it all off, I went to an event and a lady spilled her drink on me. To say that it was NOT the day for people is an understatement.

Needless to say, I politely took myself to get a manicure and went home to chill with Tito. I think I vented to a couple of people and continued to parlay with Tito. If you don't know, Tito’s is vodka. Also, if you don't know, I'm not a drinker. I'm not a lightweight. I left drinking back in my twenties. I reserve drinking for days like this where I want to throat punch anyone who breathes wrong. 

I can't say that these events are solely what sparked the irritation but I can say they intensified the feeling. I've been sitting in a place of uncomfortableness for the last two weeks. I've been stuck between a rock (my passion) and a hard place (my purpose). I am outgrowing my passion and my purpose is screaming for me to step into it full-time but I don't have faith that I'm ready. There are some more things I need to do before I am ready, in my opinion. 

Confirmation message #1

The Universe knows I'm doubting my faith because I've received several affirming messages of confirmation over the past few days. It started with a stranger reaching out to me on Facebook and telling me how thankful they are for me using my platform and creating a space of healing and

Confirmation message #2

I was in TJMaxx and Spirit told me to peruse the jewelry section. This is something I never do. I walked around and this emerald ring caught my eye, I was immediately drawn to it. I looked up the spiritual meaning for emerald. It symbolizes intuition, good luck, prophecy, rebirth, new beginnings, and growth. It is a Seeker of Love and a Revealer of Truth. 

I waited as the sales associate helped another customer. I wanted it to go on my pinky finger but I noticed it was a size 8 and I knew that would be too big. I needed a size 7 for my pinky. When the sales associate came over, I deduced to try it on anyway. Sure enough, it was too big. Slightly defeated, she told me to look around and see if I could find a size 7 ring to make sure that was the correct size for my pinky. As I was looking, I came across some Mantraband jewelry. I wasn’t aware that they sold this brand in TJMaxx and began looking. The first and only gold piece of jewelry I saw was a bracelet that said: “Anything is Possible”. I silently laughed because that’s the name of my homie, Lexx’s clothing line. When I read the mantra attached to it, I knew that I was buying the bangle. 

“Cherish your wishes and your dreams. Know that if you can dream it, you can do it. Never be afraid of failure, and know that it is another stepping stone. Remember that if you put your mind and heart to it, anything is possible.”

Confirmation message #3

I finally had time to relax and fall into my normal routine. I lit my sage and pulled out my Earth Warrior oracle cards. I haven't successfully pulled (actually pulling and doing the book exercise) in weeks. I picked the cards up and began to shuffle. Immediately, three cards jumped out:  

Chakana- “Time to cross the Threshold”

“A threshold appears, bringing an ending so complete that it is no longer possible to return to what has been. Trust in your strangest ideas, in that which is different, inspired, or unconventional. Change is afoot. You won’t feel in control of the process. Trust in what is new, different, or exciting to you. The Universe is helping you in all ways, including through correct timing. At the right moment, you will leave the past behind you and enter into the fullness of the present moment, opening up to the brightness of your future.”

Ho’Zho- “The Beauty Way of the Navajo”

“Do not place your faith in worry or stress. Allow life to unfold. Don’t try to figure it out by force. Let go and trust that what is needed is coming to you at the perfect time and perfect way. Your Peaceful mind shall perceive readily and accurately all that you need to know. Solutions can come to you more easily when you allow yourself to drop out of the pain and into the pleasure of the Beauty Way. The Beauty Way is a deep spiritual feeling of trust, openness, and appreciation of the divine presence shining in all aspects of life. When some form of ugliness is disturbing your soul, threatening to steal your peaceful trust in the Divine, you are guided to come back to the Beauty Way, back into worshipful reverence of the sacred. From that place, you then become empowered to deal with the situation in a way that increases love and joy in yourself and the world.”

Blessings of Kumu- “No good thing shall be withheld”

“The Universe wants to express its creativity, healing, and brilliance through you. Newness needs to burst through you into startling expressions of abundant life. The Universe knows all that you require so that you can best attain your destiny. All shall be provided for you. When you tune into your heart, you’ll remember that you are loved, protected, and guided in every moment. Trust the Universe. The impossible becomes possible regularly. You are being guided to re-set your mind and heart to unconditional trust. The spirit within you knows the incredible power of the Divine to bring together all aspects of life in the perfect way, at the perfect time, for astounding success.”

I am not exempt from reminding myself that anything is possible. These are some of the gentle reminders that I often need to stay grounded and to remember my purpose. To remember why it’s so very important to see the love in the thunderstorms. I am growing through a transitional period and although I don’t know the destination, I do have faith in knowing the Divine will put me in the right place at the right time in my right mind. 

Love and light.